It is the 5th of May today and the sun is shining and outside my window the park is full of happy people enjoying the summer feel and warmth. It has been a long grey winter (the longest since 1959) and we all need the light. Me, I am inside in my bed with a virus and have lost my voice, have the chills and headache and a cold. Brilliant.
I am sure I am an easy target cause I have had many things on my little mind lately; I have been shooting my music video this week where we all froze for 3 hours; I have been quite nervous about my performance in it; I had a performance in Denmark and I have to be out of my flat in 2 weeks and am in the process of finding a new place. So, I have been in "worry" mode a bit too much lately and I often get ill when that happens. Worrying gets me absolutely nowhere and blocks my ability to see things clearly! I am very aware of this, yet I still walk down the road of fear from time to time.
Relaxing with a clear conscience
One good thing about being ill is that this is the only time I seem to allow myself to relax with a clear conscience. This is totally silly - I know it! I feel I should be working on music, promotion, networking, practical things and if I decide to relax I feel a little bad about it - it is a kind of guilt over not working on my dream. Relaxing is necessary for me to see things clearly not mention it being essential for our well-being. I actually found that I more easily relax when I move myself away from my flat or the area where I live in Berlin and go out in nature or if I am in Denmark or another country. So, as I am in my flat with a virus I chose to see the positive aspect of it being that I am forced to relax (I just had to write this blogpost too.....). I am yet again reminding myself that I have to change my patterns so I feel good about relaxing. I know this is not done over night, but I will seriously do something about it now.
Until next time,
Hugs and coughs
Nina x
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